Saturday, January 28, 2017

TTC Baby Ribeiro

*Before I get started please feel free to skip this post if it doesn’t interest you. After speaking to a group of ladies on a trying to conceive group some asked to hear my story on TTC our much wanted Baby Ribeiro.

In summer 2008 aged 15 I met my now husband, it wasn’t love at first sight nothing like in the movies or how you imagine it. We became very good friends and a few months later started dating in October 2008. It was never a big secret that I wanted a huge family. For me it was always a question of “when” I’d have children. Infertility never crossed my mind, it was never a question of “if”.
At aged 15 the last thing on my mind was getting pregnant, a visit to the GP I started birth control (pill). There was no way I was prepared to have a baby. We had spoken about getting married and in April 2010 he popped the question. We started planning the big day, a few stressful days and late nights lead to missed pills. I never thought anything of it because it wasn’t the first time and we never had a pregnancy scare before. When I had my 7 day break from the pill my period never arrived. PANIC! A few pregnancy testes later we was expecting our first baby. After coming to terms with the fact our plans would now include a beautiful bundle of joy, I sadly had a miscarriage. Heartbroken. But we both agreed to put it behind us and everything happens for a reason. (Fast forward five miscarriages, I still don’t know the reason! No couple should have to go through such a heart breaking experience.)
August 2012
We had our dream wedding in front of 180 close friends and family.  After we got married, sitting in our honeymoon suite we decided we would start trying for our first baby.

September 2012
In our first home together we binned the pill and started TTC. Never in a million years was I prepared for the next 20 months, after all I had gotten pregnant after a few slip ups on the pill. Late September my period is LATE, naïve I assume I’m pregnant. I had a stash of pregnancy tests by this stage. I take my first test while “trying” BFN. My period was still late a week later, another BFN. Trip to the GP I had convince myself I had every pregnancy symptom in the book.

October 2012; 
3 weeks late, GP finally sends me for a blood pregnancy test and a hormone balance check. By this stage I had already over 10 BFN pregnancy tests. Blood test came back negative. With a note to book in to discuss other results. A few days later me and John go for my appointment to see what was wrong. Doctor says there’s an imbalance but not to worry as it was most likely from the pill and it could take 3 months to leave my system.
(For anyone that doesn’t know me, I’m a worrier. I straight away was heartbroken and knew there was a whole different reason why my period was late. This wasn’t a case of pill withdrawal)

December 2012; 
Still no period and no sign of it coming anytime soon, I went to the GP again told to just “wait”. I gave in and booked a private scan for that very same day. By this stage I had put on a good stone, I wasn’t eating more I was still exercising and trying to keep healthy. £140 later I get diagnosed with PCOS, I had no signs apart from cysts around my ovaries. Off to the GP with scan results, finally get referred to see consultant.

Polycystic Ovary Syndrome.
  • Irregular Periods – which means your ovaries don't regularly release eggs (ovulation)
  • Excess Androgen – high levels of "male hormones" in your body, which may cause physical signs such as excess facial or body hair
  • Polycystic Ovaries – your ovaries become enlarged and contain many fluid-filled sacs (follicles) which surround the eggs (it's important to note that, despite the name, if you have PCOS you don't actually have cysts)

January 2013; 
Period finally arrives, I have never been so happy to see my period. Appointment finally arrives.

March 2013; 
Sister in law announces baby number 2 will be arriving in December. Hearing how it just “happened” straight away for them left us heartbroken to say the least.

April 2013; 
Appointment day I get told to diet and try drop 10% of my body weight, they gave me metformin. (Metformin is a drug used in diabetics, doctors do not know what causes PCOS but know it is linked to insulin resistance)  I was to start taking 500mg once a day and work my way up to 1000mg.

May 2013; 
Period arrives on time for the first time since we began TTC. Also managed to loose 2lbs since starting medication. Things are looking promising. But I wasn’t managing to eat much or keep it down thanks to metformin.

June 2013; 
John’s birthday, my period was late again. BFN. I didn’t drink just in case. (I kept avoiding everything that would be harmful just in case) Trip to the GP told to up metformin to 2000mg. I couldn’t bare that dose, spoke to consultant on the phone. He said 1500mg a day.

September 2013; 
Marked one very tearful heart aching year of trying to conceive our much wanted baby. Off to the GP as instructed by them if it hadn’t happened before this stage. John gets sent for male fertility tests.

Semen analysis, also known as a sperm count test, analyses the health and viability of a man's sperm. Semen is the fluid containing sperm (plus other sugar and protein substances) that's released during male ejaculation. A semen analysis measures three major factors of sperm health: the number of sperm, the shape of the sperm and the movement of the sperm, "also known as sperm motility"

October 2013; 
We are both called in for results, Johns results are in they aren’t looking good. Low sperm count with mobility. They order his testes to be repeated to make sure. While we waited for results we would be referred to Hammersmith Fertility hospital. His results are back the next day they looked worse.

We both left that doctors room without saying a word to each other, I think we was both completely shattered emotionally and physically. I remember getting home and just crying and thinking why us? It seemed to just happen for everyone else. John didn’t take it very well, but he kept saying for me to go easy on myself. For over a year I had blamed everything on the fact that I had PCOS never did it cross my mind that he could also have something wrong. Johns family couldn’t understand how he had fertility problems as they were all super fertile. Hearing them say this just made things 100 times worse for us.

November 2013;
We both start eating better and exercising together we join the gym. John also starts taking vitamins.

December 2013;
It’s baby month. For the past 9 months we’ve been through hell in silence. John’s sister gives birth to a baby boy a few days before we are due to go on holiday. We met our beautiful nephew that very same day, it was much easier for me then I thought emotionally. One day before our trip I have a call from the hospital. They have had a cancellation and can bring our appointment forward to 3rd January. We decide to bring it forward. We go on holiday and look forward to starting the New Year.

Sperm Count. 40 million to 300 million is the normal range for the number of sperm per millilitre. Counts below 10 million are considered poor; counts of 20 million or more may be fine if motility and morphology are normal.

January 2014; 
We have our first appointment with our fertility doctor. More tests… Started to lose hope, this isn’t how it’s meant to be. It no longer felt natural and more like a chore. Metformin upped to 1750mg a day. No carb diet.

February 2014; 
I find out I have skin tumour and it needs removing, off I go to surgery. A few weeks later results come back and they have managed to remove it all. And breathe again. Appointment for our follow up arrives for May.

April 2014; 
We bought our puppy. By this stage we both thought if we aren’t having a baby we will buy a dog. One Sunday morning my husband woke up and said let’s buy a dog, four hours later we got Roxy. Gave diet up, I had managed to lose my 15% of my body weight and was back to a “healthy” weight range. John made a few changes too bought different style underwear (loose fitting they recommend for low sperm count) avoided baths, ate foods high in Zinc. 

May 2014; 
We had our follow up, the testes were all the same. Doctor turns around and says we will need IVF. A lot of tears later doctor sent us off. I need to have an X-ray of my womb HSG and John he’s testes need repeating. I left that appointment so angry and heartbroken I got home and binned everything, prenatal vitamins, Metformin and gave up. After all it wasn’t happening without IVF. I went for my HSG one week later. (I was internet obsessed researching peoples stories and experiences. It seemed so many people would get pregnant after this x-ray. Somewhere deep down I must have held on to that fact and that there was still hope. The doctor could be wrong.) I was dreading having it done there was so many horror stories online. It was an uncomfortable experience but I wouldn’t say painful. I had prepared myself for much worse.

A hysterosalpingogram or HSG is an x-ray procedure used to see whether the Fallopian tubes are patent (open) and if the inside of the uterus (uterine cavity) is normal. HSG is an outpatient procedure that usually takes less than 5 minutes to perform.

After my x-ray I was to start taking antibiotics to avoid any possible infection. John needed he’s sperm testing again. We went that same day to Hammersmith to get it all out of the way. Tests done. We both decided that was it we were emotionally drained, no more trying for a baby. I deleted every tracking app off my phone and we would now wait for our next appointment to discuss treatment plans.

June 2014; 
It’s John’s 25th Birthday, we have a party and I have my first drinks in 20 months. A few days later I am hit with sickness. I put it down to a virus I must have picked up from my nephews, it was going around. I started dreaming I was taking pregnancy tests and they were positive. The sickness wasn’t going away. It got worse, my boobs were aching like they would every time I was due my period. Because I wasn’t tracking I wasn’t sure when I was due. No two months we’re the same. It had been 33 days since my last period. The next day on Wednesday, 10th June at 5.30 in the morning I took my last pregnancy test. By the time I put it down it was positive! MY BFP. I ran into the bedroom screaming and crying saying I was pregnant. John couldn’t believe it. He asked me for the box so he could read the instructions! Doctor confirmed that very same afternoon we was indeed expecting our rainbow baby.

July 2014; 
We have an early scan 6 weeks 2 days I needed to see it to believe it. We saw our baby and heard the heartbeat everything looked good. At 9 weeks pregnant I started cramping I couldn’t even walk the pain was so intense. Emergency scan showed everything was fine and baby was measuring perfectly to my dates. They put it down to growing pains.

August 2014; 
It’s my 21st birthday and we have our 12 week scan. Everything looks good Baby Ribeiro is due 16th February 2015.

At 16 weeks we have a consultant appointment things are all going well, we have a scan and find out we are expecting a baby girl! We were both over the moon. John and his family we’re beyond excited, our baby will mark the first girl in the family in over 30 years!

September 2014; 
20 week scan everything is on track, baby Ribeiro is still a girl! We move house and start getting ready for baby.

What is an anomaly scan?
An anomaly scan, also known as a mid-pregnancy scan, takes a close look at your baby and your womb. The person carrying out the scan will check that your baby is developing normally, and look at where your placenta is lying.

February 2015; 
I gave birth to our miracle, Emma Louise was born on the 8th February, 8lbs 11oz and 19inches of perfection.

Even miracles take a little time. – The fairy godmother.
Now to remember this while we try and conceive baby number two.

During my 20 months of TTC I cried endless tears, my heart shattered with everyone's special news, and spent more money on pregnancy tests then I care to remember. Remember be nice, you don't know the struggle that goes on behind closed doors. 

*BFN- Big Fat Negative.

 BFP- Big Fat Positive. 


  1. I loved reading this! I know so many people going through similar things and it's so nice to read that their is hope even when it doesn't feel like it! This post made me teary at times but it was really good! So nice to know you have your happy ever after! Fingers crossed 2nd time round is okay! It's all worth it in the end!

    Stacey x

    1. Thank you hun!
      I think these sort of subjects need to be more spoken about. People feel that they can't speck about ttc and miscarriages. Even now in 2017 it's such a taboo subject. Yet millions of people are struggling it's just nice to know we aren't alone xxx

  2. Thank you for sharing this Tania. I struggled to conceive with my lad, he was well worth the wait though xxxxxx

    1. It's so worth it in the end isn't it hun?
      So glad we didn't give up in the end she's amazing and worth every struggle xx

  3. Thankyou for sharing your story with us xxxxx

  4. A very detailed read which will help a lot of people.

    Steph xx

    Steph’s World | Lifestyle Blog |

  5. I've not started trying for a baby yet but I'm always worried that I take it for granted I'll be able to have one, but really you just don't know how hard/easy it's going to be until you try. Well done for sharing this and I'm so glad you've got your little girl, I hope baby number 2 comes along as well xxx

  6. Congratulations on your beautiful baby girl! She is absolutely gorgeous and I'm sure you are so so proud of her! It seems like you really wen through the ringer whilst trying to conceive, but I'm so glad you've come out the other side with your stunning little girl! You have such a lovely family!

    Abbey ✨

  7. Thanks for sharing this. Even reading it just gives an idea of what you went through and can help so many others. Congrats on your gorgeous girl! (:

    Single Vegas Girl

  8. I loved reading this! Congratulations on your baby girl! She is a dream! soooo beautiful! Fab post lovely xxx

  9. What a journey, thank you so much for sharing, Tania - congratulations! x


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